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19. prosince 2017 v 20:03 | Naomi (나오미) |  SHINee příspěvky

Nejprve se vám chci omluvit, že to píšu až teď, ale stále tomu nemůžu uvěřit, že už není mezi námi, že už nikdy nedostanu příležitost spatřit celou sestavu SHINee naživu, už nikdy neuslyším jeho hlas. Tak nějak jsem i doufala, že se co nejdříve objeví nový článek, kde se píše, že to byl jen vtip, mylná zpráva - přece jen tu bylo už dost takových falešných novinek, že T.O.P nebo Jackie Chan zemřeli :')
Ale bohužel se nic nedělo...spíše se objevovalo víc a víc článků o jeho úmrtí.


Jeden z nejlepších vokálistů se přidal k legendám popu do nebe T-T

Nikdy by mě nenapadlo, že se za jeho krásným úsměvem bude skrývat smutný člověk trpící depresemi T-T bohužel jsem nikdy nic takového neprožila, takže nemohu vědět, jak se po celé roky musel cítit.
Opravdu netuším, co bych dělala na jeho místě, ale jsem na něj moc pyšná, že to dotáhl tak daleko! Moc pyšná!

Zde je jeho poslední dopis pro všechny, aby pochopili, proč se tak rozhodl.
I am damaged from the inside. The depression that has been slowly eating away at me has completely swallowed me, and I couldn't win over it.
I hated myself. I tried to hold on to breaking memories and yelled at myself to get a grip, but there was no answer.
If I can't clear my breath, it's better to stop.
I asked myself who can take care of myself.
It's only me.
I was alone.
It's easy to say I'll end things.
It's hard to end things.
I lived all this time because of that difficulty.
They said I wanted to run away.
That's true. I wanted to run away.
From me.
From you.
I asked who it was. It was me. And it was me. And it was me again.
I asked why I kept losing my memories. They said it was because of my personality. I see. It wa smy fault in the end.
I wanted someone to notice, but no one noticed. No one met me, so of course they don't know I exist.
I asked why people live. Just. Just. People just live.
If I ask why people die, I guess they'd say they were tired.
I suffered and I worried. I never learned how to turn my pain into happiness.
Pain is just pain.
They told me not to be like that.
Why? I can't even end things the way I want?
They told me to figure out why I was hurting.
I know very well why. I'm hurting because of me. It's all my fault and because I'm bad.
Doctor, is this what you wanted to hear?
No, I didn't do anything wrong.
When the doctor blamed my personality with a quiet voice, I thought it was so easy to be a doctor.
It's amazing how much I'm hurting. People who are hurting more live well. People weaker than me live well. I guess not. Out of everyone alive, there's no one hurting more than I am and there's no one weaker than I am.
But they said I should live.
I asked why so many times, but it's not for me. It's for you.
I wanted to be for me.
Don't say things that don't make sense.
Figure out why I'm hurting? I told you why. Why I was hurting. Is it not okay to be hurting this much because of that? Do I need a more dramatic detail? I need more of a story?
I told you why. Were you not listening? Things I can win over don't end in scars.
It wasn't my place to clash with the world.
It wasn't my life to be known to the world.
They said that was why I was hurting more. Because I had clashed with the world, because I was known to the world. Why did I choose this? That's funny.
It's a miracle I lasted this far.
What more can I say? Just tell me I worked hard.
That it was good of me to come this far. That I worked hard.
Even if you can't smile as you let me go, please don't blame me.
I worked hard.
I really did work hard.
Good bye.

Vedl sis dobře. Měj se tam nahoře dobře a jednou se tam sejdeme ♥♥♥

 

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1 Kazumi Kazumi | Web | 19. prosince 2017 v 20:11 | Reagovat

Ten dopis jsem ještě ani jednou nepřečetla do konce, nejde to.
Je to srdcervoucí, ale musíme držet při sobě. Teď je v nebi mezi legendami 27 ♥
Buďme silní, už jen kvůli němu♥

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